Sometimes, people wonder why I’m an agnostic. This post ought to clear up some of those mysteries, so before you denounce me as a godless heathen, hear me out.
First, the usual history. I was baptized and raised Roman Catholic, and as a child, I had no choice but to attend church services with the rest of my family each and every Sunday. I attended public school, but was also put through the requisite years of after-school CCD. Now, when you’re a kid, you can’t make informed decisions about such weighty matters, so I don’t really consider all of that stuff a big deal in retrospect. (At the time, I was more annoyed that the stuff took time away from toys or television.)
What did bother me was that I still wasn’t given any choice in the matter through my teenage years. I was still forced to attend Mass every Sunday, even though at this point my intellect had developed to the point where I had serious reservations about Christian teachings, and the Bible’s contradictions of historical facts. I wasn’t comfortable receiving the sacrament of Confirmation, but again, I had no choice in the matter. (Ironic, as that particular sacrament is one that’s supposed to be 100% voluntary.)
Once I turned eighteen, though, the yoke lifted. I obviously couldn’t be forced into church if I was away at college, and I was free to exercise my own beliefs (or lack thereof) at this point. I had the opportunity to study many world religions in college; I wasn’t searching for one to fit me, but it’s important to have a well-rounded education, and learning about the widely varying belief systems found around our planet is fascinating. At this point, I had pretty much settled on the fact that I had become an agnostic, and I’ve remained that way to this day.
Put simply, I don’t actively believe in God or any other deities, but I accept the possibility that there might be some kind of “higher power” out there. What could that being or beings be? Who knows. A god, a group of aliens, technologically advanced human beings from the future, mutant termites…all of them are plausible. But, until I see some evidence or other form of proof, they’re not possible. In the meantime, I’m not going to run my life based on ancient, outdated texts written by man in the guise of gods. This is especially important since said texts often run contrary to modern sociological development!
Now, I do think that there’s some sort of afterlife. I don’t know it’s what’s commonly referred to as “heaven,” but there has to be some place that human consciousness goes after our bodies go the way of all flesh. Consciousness is unique and important, and I think it’s a form of energy. As we know from physics, energy is neither created nor destroyed. I’m sure we end up somewhere, in some form…but, as with the theory of a higher power, I just don’t know what.
Most of my friends and family may not share my specific views on religion, but their own beliefs range across the spectrum. I’ve got friends in the clergy, and others who are atheists. I have no problem respecting the beliefs of any religious or non-religious person. The only time I get angry is when they try to force those beliefs upon others, especially when it comes to government and society as a whole, and this sadly happens far too often. This is an incredibly dangerous practice, as said beliefs are almost always in flagrant violation of the facts.
For example, I’m vehemently opposed to creationism and its thinly-veiled swordpoint, “intelligent design.” The fact that so many religious organizations want to ramrod this stuff into public school science classes makes me want to projectile vomit. That stuff has no basis in scientific fact whatsover: it’s not science, period. It’s religion, and as such, it does not belong in science classes. It belongs in religious, philosophy, or mythology classes. There’s zero evidence of creationism, and plenty of evidence supporting evolution and the history of the Earth. Creationism and intelligent design are mythology, not facts. It’s quite simple. (The same applies to religious opposition to scientific research. Since religion is not science, it should have no bearing on said research. Fundamentalist protesters really need to stop hampering human progress.)
Then, of course, there’s the excessive amount of violence that comes about as a direct result of religious beliefs. Nothing in human history has caused more death, destruction, and misery than people acting in the name of their god or gods. That in and of itself is more than enough to turn me off to deity worship, and the modern politicians and pundits that continue to promote such divinely-inspired violence and tyranny to this day are the last straw.
On the flipside, I do take issue with some militant atheists. Publicly fighting back against outdated religious doctrine is perfectly acceptable and often warranted, given the millennia of persecution that nonbelievers have had to endure. But when you cross the line into just being nasty and personally insulting, then you’re undermining your own message. Joking around is one things, but know your limits.
I’ve had my share of turmoil in my life, and I’ve also experienced things I’d have a hard time explaining rationally. However, that doesn’t automatically push me into one camp or another. I enjoy being free to make my own choices based on individual events that I come across; there’s no “one-religion-fits-all,” in my mind. If you’re committed to a rigid belief system, things are going to clash with it. Some people can “go with the flow” and adapt to the circumstances when this happens, but too many others are apt to just ignore the facts in favor of their beliefs. This disconnection from reality is not healthy!
Naturally, I’ve been scorned for my stance on religious matters. I even had classmates in high school and college who told me right to my face that I was going to Hell…because I was not a born-again Christian. That’s bigotry at best, and vitriolic hatred at worst! Of course, I really don’t give a shit; if they want to believe that I’m a horrible person simply because I don’t follow their strict ruleset, it’s not my problem. For every person that’s demonized me for my lack of belief, there’s ten or more who support it, even if they don’t subscribe to it themselves.
I’m comfortable with my agnosticism personally, and at the end of the day, that’s all that should matter. Choose your own path, whatever it may be, and leave everyone else free to choose theirs. That’ll make the world a much more peaceful place, now won’t it?